Wednesday, February 18, 2015


I have a whopping two resolutions.

1)  Walk with Job
2) Don't be an a**hole

The second is harder than you think. 

I've been quiet for several reasons, mostly having to do with going another 15 rounds with depression and anxiety over all the impending change and second-guessing my decisions as a parent.  And some anxiety and depression radiates over that, too. 

But despite all that, we have good stuff. Nic finished his first season of high school sport, and Gabriel is getting ready to cross over into Boy Scouts AND continuing his music.  He sings a lot. I love to hear him. Despite not making the school chorus (which I strongly suspect is a biased process, anyhow), I hear him sing tunefully around the house, all variety of music. It makes him happy, and hearing him makes me happy. 

And a little less stressed. 

In my work life, I totally won launch, in my job and in all the other roles I found myself thrust into. It was an awesome experience, but I'm happy the excitement is dying down. I'm still giving university lectures, and wonder if my next step is at long last getting my doctorate and leveraging my parental experience to effect change. It's a hell of an idea, but I don't know whether it's the right way to go.  Praying on it, like I am praying on everything else. 

And in other news, I was commissioned an extraordinary minister of holy communion in November, and as such, my first commission was to help distribute ashes. Which was awesome.  And I felt very much like I was exactly where I needed to be, when I needed to be there. 

And Nic tonight met with the director of CYO and asked to help with the track team. I guess I won't be stepping too far away from track this spring. 

And maybe we'll sign G up. Maybe this will be good for him, too. 

In the meantime, I celebrate 5 years at my place of work, despite that coming to an end. It's not over yet, so I'll go out doing the best job I know how. 

I don't know what's ahead. But I'm sure it'll be fine. Whatever it is.